Thursday, 9 May 2013

Feature Afterthoughts



I both loved and hated shooting the feature film. Most days were ok, Some days were amazing and 1 or 2 days were unbearable.
I'll be honest from the start and say that the feature film took a lot more out of me than I expected. I was really unprepared for the emotional roller-coaster which I happily jumped on without realizing  Despite this, if given the chance to do it all again, I would.

"I must be an adrenaline junkie because I seem to like the feeling of being on edge"

I think I got off to a great start at the beginning despite one or two hiccups. I was able to deal with any issues quickly and efficiently most of the time. I managed to maintain order on set everyday and everyone always listened to what I had to say. I think I only shouted once and that was only because a light was about to fall. I really enjoyed spending time with  my unit. A few of us were already close friends but everyone made an effort to mingle. There were times on set when one of us would just start singing a song and everyone would slowly join in. Those were the days I found amazing; the days when it felt like we were one big family.  I wouldn't and couldn't ask for a better unit to work. I felt respected and appreciated on most days.

The bad side of feature is the effect it had on me emotionally. It took a lot out of me; mainly because my heart was in it. I cared very much about my role and  the film as a whole. For me it wasn't just a university assignment, it was a turning point in my life. I had somehow managed to get an important role and I wanted to prove my worth. But I think I overworked myself. On bad days, after coming home I would just sit on my bed and cry. I wasn't crying because I was upset, but rather because I was angry. Mainly at myself. For not doing as well as I could have on a shoot day or for messing up. But I was also angry at people who did not care about feature film as much as I  did and those who did not any effort into their work. I found it quite unfair and would usually think

"Why am I working so hard when no one else seems to give a toss"

I would just cry out all my anger and always felt much better afterwards. Yet I still went back on set each shooting day because I wanted to be there.

By the end of the four week shoot period I was ready to forget about the film and move on. I'd had enough. But when I went home for Easter I found myself thinking about it a lot. I vowed that I would not do anymore work on feature after the shoot and that I would concentrate on other modules but whenever I was at the MF I had to go into 209 to see what was going on. Even now I can't leave the film alone. I desperately want it to become a success. It feels like a part of me now and that's quite incredible. Everyone knows watching films can generate all kinds of emotions in the audience and inspire them but who knew filmmaking could also do the same.


Feature Shoot Days


DAY 1


SCENES: 24, 25, 27, 28


Arrived at the media factory on time which was a great start to the day. I then started the morning routine with Joni which consists of the following:

-  Sorting out travel requirements for crew and cast.
-  Making sure crew from all departments have working kit.
-  Going through Breakdown sheets and making sure everything needed for the shoot is with us.
-  Ticking off equipment and sending it downstairs to the bus.
-  Making sure everyone is present and on time; call those who are not.
-  Check over 209 for anything we have missed.
-  Set off.

Arrived at ferrari's. Crew knew what to do as I had spoken to them about onset etiquette and the routine the day before. I then went to find Susan the owner to let her know we had arrived and what time we expected to wrap. Went to main hall to check everyone had started setting up in order. It was a slow start. I think the main reason was that majority of crew were working somewhere they had never been before. Also hair, makeup and costume took a lot longer than I thought it would - I made a note to increase the time for this for the rest of the shoot days.
Still we didn't fall far behind schedule. Scene 24 was tricky. Peter tried to do a Track/pan shot with the dolly which took a few takes. I had to tell him to move on as we were running out of time fast. As time went on, we kind of got the hang of things and started working a little faster.

One thing I think I did well today was giving out clear instructions and making sure everyone knew what was going on. I did feel slightly overwhelmed by the number of people on set but quickly got used to this.
I think I could have been a bit more active today. I was sat down for quite a bit of time. It would be better if I was constantly up near the action so I could be called easily if something goes wrong.
Overall it was a decent start to the shoot. I'm sure things can only get better.

DAY 2 - 21.02.13


SCENES: 8, Dry run - 33,39


I was on time again today. We started with the usual morning routine.
Arrived at the Location on time and once again got straight to it. As noted from yesterday - I gave a little extra time for hair, makeup and costume and it paid off. We managed to start on time. The shoot went by quite quickly and we even managed to add a new shot in and wrap on time.

The dry run was a big success. It gave us a chance to practice some very difficult tracking shots. So now I can cut off some time when we come to shoot those scenes as everything has already been rehearsed.

I've noticed a few things after the 2nd shoot day.

1) Crew members who are not needed on set seem to just lounge around doing nothing. I need o find a way to deal this.

2)  Equipment boxes lying around untidily - Packed them to the side myself, during de - brief at the end of the day I told the crew they need to keep the set clean and tidy. Every department is responsible for their own equipment - everyone seems to agree.

I am very proud of the way I behaved today. I had been told yesterday that the Actor playing Jonno (Ali) had made a comment about me not been a good first AD. I was in tears after hearing, I was actually devastated. I thought I had found something I was actually good at and he destroyed my confidence with just a few words. I'm hate crying in front of people, it makes me feel very vulnerable. Which of course ended up making me feel worse. After speaking to Chris and Peter who both assured me that I'm not a bad AD, I felt a lot better.
I took Chris' word for it because I know he wouldn't lie. He would have told me I was a shit AD but in a nice way. He also gave me an important tip; that I could have been on my feet a bit more during the first day. Of course I took this on board. YOU WILL NEVER SEE ME SITTING DOWN DURING THE SHOOT AGAIN - unless of course its lunch.
Back to the point - despite being insulted, I kept cool. When I saw Ali this morning I gave my largest and brightest smile. I even put in a little extra effort by making sure he was always catered for. I also made SURE we started and finished on time. I'd like to know what he thinks now ! I am very satisfied with the way I behaved. It's usually hard for me to control my emotions but I realised what was at stake and kept myself in check.

Overall it was a good day.  Morale was down because we had to cancel yesterday's shoot but after today everyone seems back on top again. I'm not going to let 1 cancelled shoot and an egotistical actor bring me down.

"I'M THE FIRST ASSISTANT DIRECTOR ON A FEATURE FILM !"

DAY 3 - 25.02.13


SCENES: 26, 38, 39, 49, 63


Was 1 or 2 minutes late today. It was a struggle to get up. After our arrival we started with the usual morning routine.

Back at Ferrari's today. I kind of missed the place. As usual I went to find Susan or Luisa (her daughter). I think it's good to get into a routine, Life is so much easier when your body knows what it's doing even when the mind isn't paying attention.

We started slightly late today but that wasn't a problem because we soon picked up the pace. THE BBC came and messed with my entire schedule which I was not happy with. Thank goodness I had scheduled a little extra time to accommodate for the visit. Everyone seemed on point and they said they were quite impressed by how well we work. This was definitely a morale boost for the crew. As annoyed as I was with the BBC I'm hoping to see myself on TV for just a second. Also their trip meant we had to start earlier which allowed me to schedule in 2 extra scenes. 

Today was good because we weren't stuck in the hall. We shot a few scenes in the upstairs corridors and cloakroom.

Spoke to crew members who were sitting around and told them to avoid doing that. My exact words were "There is always something to help out with". It looks really bad when a handful of us are on set working our asses off and the rest are sitting around relaxing and eating. I also told them if they find themselves with nothing to do, they should come and find me as I always have a million things going on and need all the help I can get.

Overall it was a nice uplifting day. We managed to get everything done and on time as usual which is always great.







DAY 4 - 26.02.13

SCENES: 31, 33


Joni is ill today so I have told him to stay off set in case he infects actors. However I begged him to drive Sara aka Tanya to ferrari's; which he did.
Arrived at the MF and went through the routine as usual.
Today was a very easy day because we shot one of the scenes which we dry ran. Both cast and crew knew exactly what they doing so we got through it very quickly. I think a lot of the crew are still buzzing from the BBC visit yesterday. Regardless I still had a few sing songs with some crew members to boost morale.

The cast members have been calling and texting me about shoot days. With all I have to deal with I don't want them on my back as well. On set cast can be my responsibility but off it I think Charlotte should be the one dealing with them.

DAY 5 - 27.02.13


SCENES: 30, 52, 59

The morning was very manic today. Both crews had the same call time which was irritating but unavoidable. I never want this to happen again. We had no idea where some of our equipment was. We had unit 1 taking equipment which didn't belong to them or would have benefited us more. I had to make a few negotiations. For example, they had taken the largest arri light even though we were shooting in a hall and they in a bedroom. I spoke to Anthony and got the arri back, it made sense that we should have it. Also the sound recordists from unit 1 took both sets of radio mics even though they knew we were also shooting today and had a lot more cast members than them. In the end, had to send my sound babies to stores to get some more out.

It was another generally good shoot day. By now I'd like to think I've dealt with the majority of  'on-set' problems or issues as none came up today.

I'd like to give a special mention to runner Matt who has been excellent on set. He's always eager to help and I'm always happy to give him some work to. Seeing him so excited makes me happy. I wish I was that excited when I ran for Wraith. I've been trying to get the runners involved as much as possible by finding things for them to do. Want to avoid boring them.

"Joni has given me his cold."


DAY 6 - 04.03.13


SCENES: 66, 70


The bus was late today which put us behind a bit. However as soon as we got on set we began to set up pretty quickly and ended up getting back on track.
There was an issue with a Panther Tripod being left outside the media factory. I did not see this and I'm kind of glad I didn't else I would have gotten quite angry. I'm constantly telling the crew that they need to look after the kit. It's all we have and it's very expensive. Everyone in unit 2 knows that they are in charge of the equipment they take down. I've said it about a hundred time. I'm very disappointed in whoever brought it down and left it there. At the debrief tonight I'll have to mention it but I won't be calling anyone out. I'll just reiterate how important the equipment is.

Today the crew and a few cast members met actress Katie aka Aggy for the first time. She seems very nice and her acting is quite good. It was a bit of a struggle getting her away from unit 1. I had to schedule all her scenes into 5 days and then schedule Richard's aka Sam's scene around her. While the script was being split it should have been noted down that both units would share Aggy equally. Although she's in more unit 1 scenes, she is still in quite a few of ours.

Despite the late start, it was still an ok shoot day. We could have worked a little faster but I won't complain because we still finished on time.

Tonight while double checking tomorrow's schedule with Joni it was revealed that the taxis to transport us to tomorrow's shoot had been booked for the wrong day. The minibus is unavailable all day tomorrow.
Joni and I spent the majority of the night ringing taxi companies to try and sort something out. There was no way I was going to cancel such an important shoot day. In the end we managed to sort something out.
Thank goodness I always double check. If I hadn't, we would have turned up at the MF with no transport while the majority of taxis in Preston would have been booked throughout the morning.

DAY 7 - 05.03.13


SCENES: 58, 68

I had to push back call times and the whole schedule back by an hour as the taxis were only available after 9 due to the school run. Only 3 people were in one taxi bus on the way to Ferrari's so I asked Joni to call the taxi company and switch to a normal cab for the journey home to save us some money. 

The set back cost us quite a bit of time and I ended up having to cut shots to save some time. Peter had no issue with this and even helped me with the task. We've developed a very comfortable Director/AD relationship and seem to work quite well together. We can now practically have conversations on set with no dialogue needed what so ever. 


DAY 8 - 07.03.13


SCENES: -


I had to cancel this morning's shoot as our bridesmaid 1 has dropped out yet again. However we still went ahead with the afternoon shoot.

We shot Myrtle's scene's on the laptop in the CSI house. 

It didn't feel like a proper shoot because we started late in the day and the whole thing took less than an hour. I think the majority of the crew were happy to have half the day off.




DAY 9 - 10.02.13


SCENES: 19, 21


Today was our first weekend shoot and as usual things started going wrong from the start. Our actor Richard was late for his call time so I called him to find out where he was. Turns out he was in some far away city up north, the name of which I cannot remember. I did not to cancel the shoot date because there was just no other day I could schedule it on. Besides, I'm now quite sick and tired of having to change the schedule for actors. Richard agreed to come down as soon as he could and I went off to break the news to everyone.
It would take a good 2 hours for him to arrive which created more problems; the rest of the cast had already arrived so it meant they had to wait around. I apologised for the inconvenience and ask them kindly to wait. 1 or 2 crew members started to complain which was unneeded seeing how messed up everything was already. I told people they could go and get food or go and stretch their legs but they had to be back by 5.30pm as Richard was due to arrive at 6.

Because the sun would have gone done entirely by the time Richard arrived, I went into town with a few crew members to see if any of the surrounding shops would allow us to use their electricity. Of course this was unsuccessful. The area would be too dark to shoot in after 6pm with no lighting so I made the decision to change the location last minute. I got in contact with Peter and  asked him to find suitable locations around the media factory where we would shoot as it was the only place we could use as a power source. We managed to find a location right outside the media factory which was perfect for both scenes.
It was freezing outside by the time Richard arrived and it even started snowing a little at some point. I refused to let that stop the shoot. Instead, I went to steal a kettle and starting making hot drinks.

"No way was I going to cancel the shoot"

I am quite happy with the decisions I made today. If I had cancelled the shoot, I would have had to push it back to after Easter as Richard was unavailable any other day. I've now gotten used to the fact that things like this are bound to happen and as the First Ad it's my job to make changes and decisions quickly and also STICK to them.


DAY 10 - 11.03.13


SCENES: 71


Today, we had the most cast members we've ever had on set. There were a lot of people. Thank Goodness I'd managed to get a green room next door and there would have been nowhere to put them.
A few crew members also starred in the scene which meant I had to make a few changes. Peter was a wedding guest, which meant I had to direct for a while (well not really, I just got to say action, nothing fancy).

It was an extremely good shoot. I had managed to get permission from Ferrari's to use their chair covers and ribbons and it make the whole scene come together. I have no idea what we would have used otherwise as the production design department had bought very little props and decorations for the wedding. This really angered me because a good deal of the budget should have been spent on cheap wedding decorations. We had about 10 balloons and some confetti and that was it. For a film that's called 'The Wedding',  getting such a small amount of decorations was quite inadequate of the production design team.

The shoot went by quite quickly and the atmosphere on set was amazing. Richard and Katie have a weird chemistry between the two of them and watching them play Sam and Aggy is quite entertaining.






DAY 11 - 12.03.13


SCENES: 69


Today was the worst day so far of the entire shoot for me. I'm used to things going wrong by now but today was just ridiculous. Scene 69 is basically the most important scene in the script because it's the climax so we really couldn't afford to make any mistakes.

I was told by Luisa yesterday that a conference was due to take place in the main hall today. I clearly told her that we would not be using the main hall but the registry room next door and she said that was ok. However when we arrived, I was told we could no longer use the room as they were using it the lunch area for the people attending the conference. so there goes our location. We could have shot outside but it had snowed the day before and patches were still on the ground. So there goes the back up plan.
And then, while I'm trying to figure out what to do next I get told that the costume for the lead character in the scene has been left at the MF. I became very grumpy after that and when I'm annoyed or angry, I do not think rationally. Thankfully Wobs managed to find a church location not too far from Ferrari's. Despite this good news, I was still a little annoyed because we had to go back and get the costume. I was quite snappy and still tried to get things going but I knew I wasn't doing well.

When we arrived at the new location an incident happened which caused my mood to go from irritated to extremely angry. I knew I couldn't work in such a state and rather than stress everyone else out with my anger, I decided to put Joni in charge and go and get the costume as nothing could be shot without it anyway. This gave me plenty of time to cool off and I returned to set feeling much better.

Once we started, the first few shots were very quick. Then we reached the main part of the scene and it all started falling to pieces. It quickly became obvious that Richard had not learnt his lines for that scene. He kept asking for line ques in the middle of sentences which meant that hardly any of the footage would be useful. When we wrapped I had a strong feeling we would have to re- shoot that scene.


DAY 12 - 13.03.13


SCENES: 24, 25, 27, 72, 73, 74, 75


Today was a struggle. That is all I can say. Due to location and cast availability, I had to schedule all those scenes into one day. When I was making the schedule I noted down that this would be impossible to carry out in reality. However I decided to see how much we could get done.

The day started well with re-shoots. We had to re-shoot scenes from the first day as there were a few problems with sound and the editors had complained about shot sizes. These went by quite quick and then we started to prepare for the last scenes of the film.

I won't say much about this day because I don't like to think about it but it was an extremely long one. There were times when I felt like walking off set and going home to take a nap but of course I stayed.
I struggled with a lot of things today…as the shoot draws to an end I feel like I'm losing it. I did nothing about crew morale even though it was the day when people needed it most. I physically and mentally couldn't do it. I felt absolutely drained and it showed. I'm very disappointed in myself for behaving like this, that is not what a good first ad does. I should I tossed my own feelings to the side and just done my job, but that sounds a lot easier to say than it is to actually do.

I also had a number of cast members sat around doing nothing for a long period of time. This was through no fault of my own thank goodness. I had already made enough mistakes. It was because Unit 1 were over an hour late getting Sam and Aggy to us. I won't delve into this issue because I'll end up writing pages about it.
In the end despite everyone feeling down and tired it was still our most efficient shoot. At some point, we were shooting and moving lights at the same time. This kind of entertained everyone and morale came back for the last few hours as we pushed to get to get everything shot.

We were supposed to wrap at 10pm but by the time it came we were on the last scene and needed about 20 - 30mins to finish. Susan came in at about 10.10 and told us we had to leave. I tried to go and speak her to explain the situation but she refused to listen to me and even Gary aka Terry. I went back into the hall and made the decision that half the crew would start packing up quietly while the other half finished off the scene as quickly as possible.

5mins later Susan's husband came in, told us to get out and refused to leave until we did. Wobs basically had to beg him in order for us to quickly rush the ending. I was absolutely devastated. I knew Ferrari's wouldn't let us back after this and it felt like the entire shoot had been a waste seeing as we'd blown the ending. Of course that was irrational Rachel thinking and I soon calmed down.  I decided to wait for the editors' judgement before making any decisions.

DAY 13 - 14.03.13


SCENES: 6, 17


Today was a well deserved rest from yesterday's near catastrophe. I made the call time a little later than usual so the crew could rest a while. Not all crew members were present because of lack of transport.
Scene  6 was a breeze with only 3 shots and we wrapped on time.
There was a problem when we arrived at revolution to film with the manager saying that Joni had never confirmed the date or made a booking, but this got sorted out soon enough and we managed to shoot.
Scene 17 also took very little and there were no problems with the shoot. A nice relaxing easy day

DAY 14 - 18.03.13


SCENES: 15


I was quite ill today, so spent a good deal of the shoot inside feeling sorry for myself while sending out instructions. I went back and forth a lot which probably made me more ill. I should have stayed inside but I'm like a mother who doesn't like to leave her children alone too often.

I just remembered there was an incident on one of the earlier shoot days where Tony told me that they could still function without me on set. Tony and I are close friends so I didn't find this insulting at all. Instead I decided to test the theory and left the set to go and take a break as it was an easy shoot. Less than 30mins later Webster and Peter came out and told me to come back in because they hadn't been able to shoot anything since I left. It's good to know I'm needed. That was one of the reasons I went for the role.


"I guess I didn't get much attention as a child"


DAY 16 - 11.04.13


SCENES: 68b, 69


As predicted, we indeed ha to reshoot 69. However the entire cast needed were not all available on the same day we had to compromise. We ended up shooting just the main dialogue part.
I had an incident with a cast member before I went off to the shoot. Johnny aka Paul practically refused to get in the car until he had his expenses paid back. It took over 10mins to get him to agree to come to the shoot. I felt like some sort of negotiator from a film.

It was a late start to the day and also very rushed as cast member had other commitments in the evening. However we managed to get all we needed done. I'm happy to have finally finished.